I've been reading since about Friday all things Mother's Day, obviously since it's today. But for me it's probably the first Mother's Day that I've really thought about it in different terms.
I mean it's no news flash to anyone who knows me that my mother and I have not always been close. We didn't have a major fight at any one point in our lives or anything, just circumstances, both in and beyond our control. That relationship is getting better as we both get older, as most of those mother/daughter relationships do. And I'm ever so grateful that we're both here to work on it.
What I've really been thinking about a lot today though is those times I do complain to my friends or something about my mother or about Madison. And what I forget about are those people who either don't have their mothers with them anymore to "complain" about or those around me who haven't had the great joy of having a child to become a mother. I forget that this may be a sad weekend for them. Those who so deperately miss their mothers and those who have tried everything under the sun to become one.
So I pledged that today those friends and family that I know would be in my thoughts as well today, hoping that a little of that will help them get through today a little better. I've cherished every moment that Madison wanted to spend with me today (because we all know it's becoming her choice and not mine :) ). Even if sitting outside to read with snacks only lasted 10 minutes because it was not fun to read with the sun in your eyes Mommy.
I am learning more and more every day just how lucky I am to be a mom.
I was visiting my home town a couple of weeks ago and met an old friend whose mother died of cancer at about 56. This girl also happens to have no kids and not through choice. She didn't spell it out for us, but she said Mothers day was always the hardest for her and she just gets an egg sized lump in her throat. I felt so sad for her and it really brought home what you are saying since, despite everything I can still enjoy my mother AND my child
Posted by: i0nafi0na | August 03, 2007 at 06:34 PM