I sit here this morning so very early and already my mind is filled with many different emotions about happenings of yesterday.
My thoughts and prayers are with the family and friends of all of those affected by the tragedy at Virginia Tech.
I am also thinking of all of the people affected by this big storm that passed through New England (may even still be here, but the wind has calmed down) yesterday.
I also become a little selfish and worry about how some of this will affect Madison. Although we try our best to keep her somewhat sheltered from all of the horrible news, she always manages to watch the news or hear tidbits. She is the classic child that just when you think she's not paying attention, she's actually the one taking it all in. She loves the news, almost as much as I do. So do I not let her know anything that's going on and keep her completely oblivious or do I let her watch as much as I think she can handle and then talk to her about it? I mean I love that part, the part where she asks her grown up questions. I'm proud that she thinks of others and always wants to help, but what do you say when she asks, "Why don't the adults in Washington just stop all the wars so no one has to die?"
It's all such a fine line and somedays I'm not always sure what side to be on. Some days I let her guide me by the questions she asks. Others, I think it's just to much for her to handle and instead we go read or draw (that would be Madison drawing, have any of you ever seen me draw?)so she is distracted from that particular event.
I know that my worries of such things will eventually turn into other worries and some day I'll wonder why I even worried about this at all, but who knew that when you have a child this whole other big box of worry opens up inside and never seems to close...ever.
